Linking with Suzie Ellers Live Free Thursday “Grudingly”
2 Cor. 9:7 says to give what you have decided in your heart. . . but what if you’ve decided that’s not much.
Four years ago July I grudgingly gave up my home and moved with my husband to help my mother in law. My father in law had passed away and she was legally blind. In the beginning, it was challenging. The hardest part is living with some one after you have been independent and on your own and I am sure it was difficult for her opening her home to us.
Doug’s dad last request for us to help take care of the fiercely independent person we call Mom. I work as a case manager so my days I am working at the hospital. Evenings, dinner, Wheel of Fortune and Jeopardy, became the routine, Thursday night we ate out without fail at the local restaurant. We celebrate milestones such as the anniversary of Jim’s death, their anniversary. Christmas family gatherings were the best the first year was hard without Jim but we pulled it off. She loved Christmas. Last year, I arranged for a photographer to come. She loved to shop, garage sales and to do crafts.
In January this year she went on hospice, and I am sad to say September 21 she passed away. So many things I learned from her over the four years. She was witty and wise. My heart is breaking as I miss her. I walk into the dining room and expect to see her and she is not there but you can feel her. I cared for her last Sunday. I am caring for her but she worries about me but I will cherish the memory of that day. I am having a case of the what if’s today. I wish I had made her the home-made noodles she loved on Sunday. Of course, my loss is nothing compared to my husband’s loss as he is the oldest son or to the daughters loss.
Although I moved grudgingly, this has been home for the last four-year and the best four years. I count it joy that we were able to take care of her.
For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 8: 38-39